Just let the spirit move!!

My stars! Me & my control issues! I have a friend that I just adore. I was thrilled when she told me that her family would be visiting our church on Sunday. They are a homeschooling family also so I would get to see her so much more if we went to the same church. Of course, I wanted everything to be great. And because we go to the greatest church ever, I was not worried at all!

Welp, Sunday came and boy was my controlling attitude coming out. Our pastor is out of town and a wonderful, Godly man stepped in for him. The message was a bit different from what our pastor normally does (duh! Of course it was. He's a different man!) and he went out on a limb and said some things that you do not always hear in a message. Not that these things were not true. Every one of them were. But I panicked! What if my friends were offended? (Hello, the Christian faith offends every day. It's not our fault if people are offended by the Truth!) What if they never wanted to come back? What if they decided they didn't like me because my church was weird? (which it's so not) I was honestly sweating. You could see sweat pouring down my shirt. I have never wanted the service to be over so quickly. I could not even listen anymore. I was just so worried. As soon as the service ended I apologized and pleaded for them to come back. They looked at me oddly, told me they really enjoyed it, and were actually friends with the man. I. Wanted. To. Die. Why oh why must I be so controlling?! The Spirit was moving in them, talking to them, and I apologize? And not only that, because I was so worried, I didn't let the spirit move in me! I must remember that it's God's church, not mine. It's up to me to be faithful, not to do the harvesting. When will I learn?